Friendship does not always need words
Death has to be dealt with, sometimes in pure silence
You gave me the greatest gift that no one else in this world could ever have given me, life.
You supported me in all my endeavors , weather you agreed with what I was doing or not.
Children, being a single mom, being a divorced woman, changing careers, living in my own ways regardless of what others thought, being who I am.
You loved me more than anyone could.
But when I needed you most it was time for you to leave this Earth.
I needed you to be there for me in the one time that you could not, as I mourned your death. Momma, I miss you but you blessed me with friends.
Friends who would be there for me in silence in the time that I needed them. Not saying a word, allowing me to set, cry, hurt, and survive all that would be laid before me in the days after you passed.
Weeks and months passed, I would dial your number only to have Daddy answer. His voice, the hurt and pain of missing you in his voice, reminded me that to talk to you was no longer an option. Silence is all I would have.
I would go and set on benches at the old grave yard at Meramec Springs and just stare across the space. Those people long passed, no family left to miss them. Most unmarked graves that are long since forgotten except by visitors to the park, not knowing who they were visiting, just knowing there lie graves.
One day, setting upon that bench, missing you, heart breaking, needing to hear a voice I would never hear again, I found a silent friendship.
A woman came and had a seat, never said a word, looked across the space, stayed about 10 minutes, left....
Left me with a silent friendship that made me know you were still in my life, I only needed to talk to you and you in your wisdom would provide the message to God about what it was that I needed in my life that day so that I could still move forward.
Thank You Mom for loving me so well, Rest In Peace.